No post yesterday. My mental and physical health required some extra rest. And I guess that's the thing, I set out to write 31 days, that was the goal, and now it'll be just 30. I won't meet my goal.
Am I disappointed that I missed a day? Yes. But was I relieved when my head hit the pillow? Yes.
So I missed one day. Most people would say, whatever, no biggie, in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. And that's true. But some would also say that I set out a goal to discipline myself to write every day for 31 days-- commit. And they are right too.
Here's what I say. I am not using this time of rest as a cop-out to skip more days. But I also know when rest is more important than meeting every goal. I worked two jobs yesterday and got some homework done-- that's worth something. The day was long and pretty rough if I'm honest (I got a good cry in too). But now I'm going to get organized so I can prepare rest and writing for the rest of the month.
There's a verse in Psalms that says this:
I love the part that tells us to speak truth in our hearts... not just out loud or verbally, but inside when it's just us listening. For me, if I'm tired, my brain is going to feed my soul a lot of lies. They can look like bitterness, self-hatred, self-consciousness, etcetera. Sometimes my feelings talk big "truths" to my heart and I am not very godly when I listen in. But when I pause to speak real truth--biblical truth-- to my heart, that's when I'm not going to be shaken by fatigue or self-depreciation or lies.
So yesterday I needed sleep. I'm sorry if you desperately missed having a post (I'm sure that's not the case, though). I'm sad that I missed a day, but I'm glad for healing rest. I will continue to write and push myself, and in the midst of it, I will tell my heart truths: it's ok to take a break. It's ok to set hard goals. It's ok to fail. You can keep going. You are loved. You are valued. You are worthy... because Christ is everything and he has said so.
Am I disappointed that I missed a day? Yes. But was I relieved when my head hit the pillow? Yes.
So I missed one day. Most people would say, whatever, no biggie, in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. And that's true. But some would also say that I set out a goal to discipline myself to write every day for 31 days-- commit. And they are right too.
Here's what I say. I am not using this time of rest as a cop-out to skip more days. But I also know when rest is more important than meeting every goal. I worked two jobs yesterday and got some homework done-- that's worth something. The day was long and pretty rough if I'm honest (I got a good cry in too). But now I'm going to get organized so I can prepare rest and writing for the rest of the month.
There's a verse in Psalms that says this:
"He who walks blamelessly and does what is right and speaks truth in his heart... He who does these things shall never be moved" (Psalm 15:2, 5b).
I love the part that tells us to speak truth in our hearts... not just out loud or verbally, but inside when it's just us listening. For me, if I'm tired, my brain is going to feed my soul a lot of lies. They can look like bitterness, self-hatred, self-consciousness, etcetera. Sometimes my feelings talk big "truths" to my heart and I am not very godly when I listen in. But when I pause to speak real truth--biblical truth-- to my heart, that's when I'm not going to be shaken by fatigue or self-depreciation or lies.
So yesterday I needed sleep. I'm sorry if you desperately missed having a post (I'm sure that's not the case, though). I'm sad that I missed a day, but I'm glad for healing rest. I will continue to write and push myself, and in the midst of it, I will tell my heart truths: it's ok to take a break. It's ok to set hard goals. It's ok to fail. You can keep going. You are loved. You are valued. You are worthy... because Christ is everything and he has said so.
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